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almost a year after previous blog.
in work -

i got a good job on may. i learnt alot in AGlifestyle aka AMNIG.
know how to develop a brand yet our team is still very weak in promoting our brand
due to there's somebody who know nothing about fashion handling it. An obstacle,sorry for saying that.
work flow doesnt seems good, things keep on changing by an old lady. i thought she was our life jacket but too bad,she is a submarine which can float/sink. ><'' 

so,working with people that do not know fashion is really tough in fashion line. Well, telling myself that this is just work. i still need money to survive~ just do whatever being ordered. =)

in relationship -

we had twice big fight, almost break up. Finally he speak out that he couldn't change his habit anymore. what can i do is just can accept. At first i was very defensive on this, i feel why am i the one who need to tolerate?! why not you?
after think deeply, he did tolerate me alot thats why all these while he was just silent and never fight with me. T.T 
He always said he want me to understand him. I admit that i never tolerate, but now. Yes, i did. 
Honestly , im tired. why not just relax? dont have to angry all the time,its killing my cells.
and i dont know how far can we go , but at least we are happy together. 
i just hope that, we tolerate each other and change myself. i'm tired of getting angry.

22nd birthday -

it was just last week.
as what i thought, only few of them celebrate with me. i know this will happen and its make me understand that i dont have to attend everyone else birthday as in they dont attend mine. maybe people will think im jealousy or what, but so? i dont need to spend rm150 on a friend's birthday that dont even wish me happy birthday though. At the same time, i want to save more money for my bali and korean trip next year!!
Well, i still got present from my friend. one set victoria secret parfume and juicy couture bracelet from him. =) juicy couture its really surprised me, i never think that he could remember what brand i like. Thank God.
And , i had a biggest birthday present for myself. WXM 5729. i got it since 31/10/12.
i'm so happy i could get a car, even is just a cheap one but its really a small achievement for myself! ^^V he really help me alot on this car. Appreciated.

i would write more blog. these are all my memory=)

❤:'( 30.1.2012

the last day of january

i don't know since when,we argue..
haih,this time really we both getting crazy.

you just simply broke the promises just when i'm turn around.
i felt i'm useless.

i remember i just walked away,
firecracker sounds non-stop,it look pretty on the dark sky
it should be very happy and lovely
but my heart was bleeding..

like the drama,you came to me.
madly,angryly....crazyly yelling at me.
i never saw you being like this before
fear...
shock..
scare..
sad...
cry out loud..
drifting with your car,
more fear~
i still remember you yelled: 'IT'S ALL MY FAULT'

ame,of course..
''beh tahan''
shouted back to you,untill she don't even know what was she shout at...
punch her hand on the car,take out her favourite ring throw to you.
she totally mad,she said ''broke up''
you looked at her,speechless
its deeply heart in her heart shouting you at the moment and saying the two words
what can she do?
she felt she was too childish,what her did all times was not right.
in his eyes,it was controlling,in her's eye it was caring

other than cry,i don't know what can i do.
i wondering,
am i really did wrong,how could i make myself in trouble?
it just a god damn fuck ciggarette!!
how could i so mad because of it?
im asking myself why can't just i don't care everything like others girls did?
hell.....

you stopped car,
hold her hand,put back the ring
apologize with a hug
god damn,she was blank
how could she make her loved one trouble
she decided not to care about it anymore,forgot all those promises
yes! she did...and she is trying so hard
god bless her,please.
she hope her men can do everything for as she always did to him

=)

amethyst 2/2/2012 1:11am

❤2012❤

玛雅（有写错吗？）预言的一年到了，大家是否在惆怅呢？还是努力地让生活更精彩？我却发现好多人结婚去了~要唱‘朋友们都结婚去了’

相隔半年的部落格，发生了好多好多事哦~
开心，不开心~都有吧。

工作：
已经不在那遥远的地方工作了~找到了新工作，还以为。。。。
结果还是掉入陷阱，对于好胜的我。被‘炒鱿鱼’不是件3，5天能接受的事><''
要到新年，没工作是件痛苦的事呢！加上自己很多债务呀~
只好硬着头皮找兼职。*告诉自己我还行

感情：
他送了我一只紫色的手机~
由于智能手机能百用，自然把事情都写进里面了。
。。。
以为一切都会如我想像的那么完美，原来‘nothing is perfect’ 这句话一点都没错呢！
他，很好。。。很多事都迁就我，也许是自己个性问题，再有耐力的人也会受不了我。。
结果，电视剧中的画面出现了。。第三者==''
而且是在他自己还没发现事，我就大概猜得到。。
漫长的夜晚，哭得稀里哗啦，他，更是不知所措。
一度想放弃，但却还是不忍心~（老毛病发作）

朋友：
继续感情，熟悉的朋友该懂我什么意思~（更本没什么看好不好）
但专家说，自言自语对身体好^^
❤
我恨自己，相信他，不相信认识十年的朋友。。
对不起~
我被爱冲昏了头=(
但现在，侥幸地。。大家还是好朋友，大家都健健康康~
不一样的是，蘑菇小姐找到了一个好码头~哈哈！还拿了车牌，也有车了~
以后大家出去都方便多了~

家人：
时过境迁，学习信任也得从零开始~
妈生日那天，召见了‘他@.@''
一切都算顺利吧~
一年了，终于大家都接受他。。。
反而自己打从心底，就有那么一点点质疑他了
到底需要多久时间才能康复呢？

21岁：
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耶！我21了。。。（buuuuu~有什么大不了）
今年是我过得最豪华的生日呢！
好多礼物啊~~哈哈！！
妈送我57钥匙~好贵~~~~❤但很喜欢~
他送了我第一颗戒指。。。=)
看的出他很努力要证明他是爱我的，毕竟利用一半的薪水来筹备我的生日，不是谁谁都能办得到啊！
我问自己，放下了吗？

未来：
2月会开始新工作~
拜托，一切顺顺利利好吗~:')
3月会到台湾去旅行呢！
期待~~~~~~~
但也很烦~没钱怎么去啊？！！==lll
加油！57会带给我好运的！！

大雨/18.1.2012 15:56