holiday~

tomorrow holiday~
but i wanna work~can i??
i need money so much~!

i swear,i want to get 7k within a year~
or else....
how can i survive?
how to go london??

haih...
now my maybank left rm18....hahaXD
hongleong left rm??.....lol

i don't even have money to go school~
what a pity life,my house don't even have dinner==''
i cooked brunch almost everyday for this week~

everyday get up,
cook...eat...online...
oh no....

god bless me,hope i get weekend job on january~~~i need
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$


T.T
perfect nightmare~

体会*.*

很快很快~
一起两个月了~
也许大家都经过了爱得你死我活的曾经，
现在总算了解什么是‘简单’.....

对于自己，
我还是很难改变那四年里的生活方式，
依然很执着于许多小事....

例如：
为什么一回到家不找我...或者
为什么你跟朋友出去都不跟我出？（但其实是早上才见面）

也许，真的....
有时候不是他不在乎你，而是你太在乎对方~
所以总是觉的还欠那么一些些~

习惯了每天和他见面，但突然他说要加班你就会很没心情..
试想想，
你们还没一起时，
你也没和他出去，那为什么当时不觉得没心情。

昨晚，
看到留言....
他说：原来，当你失望的时候，你宁愿什么都不要，以免失望慢慢变成绝望~

哇，他在说谁？

后来问他，他说他在指我~
也对得~但应该说....
不要期望太高~以免失望太大咯~


*终

~tu me manques~

popeye says:

couple is easy,
i love you,you love me...
i treat you good,you treat me good....
don't measure how much you give or you take....
stay simple relationship and happy always...

the most positive and easy mind~
i was doubting myself,
i can do it??
i still need some time to get it on i guess,
i was too long time in a complicated relationship=='' oh no

one thing....
we always meet at night,
after dinner,
i really don't know where can we goT.T

and we don't talk much on phone~
i worry that , our topic will less and less...

you promised me,you will never leave me....but
i afraid one day, you will say this to me
''i feel that we don't have much topic,we don't even have the same mind
and think.....i think we being friend is better''

haizzzzzz

what a life~
i know i think too much:'(

troblesome

its been a month plus~
popeye & olive 's story began....

many wonder,
why are you with him??
haha....i wondered too....

i can't accept bad comment from others at first,
but gradually....i admit it~
nothing much,just love...
easy,
relax,
no stress,
caring,
and happy love~that's what i want...

mr.S always complaine me,
judge a book by its cover.....
lolXD hey,i'm just saying ok...but i did not^^

physically,maybe there's still lots of comment blaX3
yet,
i don't even care

about my family,some of them support but most of them not..
is okay,
time can proove everything

we will always happy to belongs together ,i believe
by:olive

my second...........

time flies....
since that day he said break uo to me,
i'm feeling ignoring him so much~!! i really do....

finding a way to reject,refuse....
finally,just two months...we broke...


but,
things always unbelieveable and incredible
soon,i get another guy...

at first,i was doubting that am i right??
but,
eventually...i accepted him on my birthday

i think it could be a good start after being naive for 4years...
now,new life started....

hanging out everyday(almost) with him,
i know many people commenting about us...
our outlooking bla X3....
but who cares??
the most important is being happy together,thus
a new relationship started with this possitive mind

but,i wondered so much that
is it all guys are the same??
treat you like princess at the beginning,but
dump you like a king dump down those 'wife' after all huh??

is like....
i just want to tell you that
i give you my heart,but
can you please keep it nicely? or....at lease you don't dump it??

温柔~

他常说，
你为什么一点点事就发脾气？

她对我说，
凡事冷静点....没有人定的顺你的脾气....

他们说，
你不要整天酱容易发脾气.....

某某人，她也曾说，
你不要酱大小姐脾气啦....

不男不女的她说，
你做工一不爽那个顾客一定会摆臭脸....

一个我和她很好的‘她’，
她没说...但她行动上告诉我说....
-你脾气不好，我不敢麻烦你--

心碎的声音
只有我自己听得见~
唯有伪装自己，把自己情绪埋起来....
才不会引起以上的‘好’共鸣...........
我想是这样，
看到这篇唯一一篇中文的部落格的你.....
别怀疑，是我，喜欢紫色的我。
不要因为这篇文而关心我，那只会让我觉得你在可怜我~
我没事啊~还是那个三八的我....没有不一样，没有不开心....
只是从此，我伪装我自己~

my lovely Kepong~~

haiz....
today see new houses at setia alam~
so far away from kepong....
if it is comfirmed~will shift to there next year~
omg
have to leave kepong~
i don't know is a good new or bad news~
maybe new environment is good for me~
as in,next year i no more being a student~hmmmm

and,
i'm so damn desparate with my salary...
its takes so damn long time to get~
gosh~! i can die if the stupid head master still don't approve the cheque for me....

GOD bless me please~!
T.T

what's on my mind?

i guess that i really a bad attitude girl
from the view of my friend,i'm kind of
hot temperate,easy get angry....
blablabla......
if i were a good temper person,
you all will not saying me like that...

haih
i think i should have to calm down and think before do....or say
i know,i'm bad....

or maybe,
being a fake person is better than showing everything on face?
i guess so.....
this world is full of lies,fakeness.....cheating~! no doubt...

by the way,
club with girls again last night,a good night but suckz song....
i miss dj fuzz seriously~!lol....
addicted~

well,i know what i'm doing~!
if you wanna comment about me,just comment.....
i will not care ,like last time...
i'm hurt,that way u guys think about me....i'm so lost~!!!!

purple valentine

yesterday morning:
i recieved text,girls dated us to go club on this thirsday~
i'm ok with it so i just promised them~
excited~~

yesterday noon:
singing k with my auntie~~
haha....it has been long time din't meet them~
having great time ^^

yesterday evening:
having dinner with my family,because my it was brother's birthday...
many dishes my mum ordered
fish,prok,prawn,vege,tofu,chicken...wow!!
damn full~after that having dessert at metro prima~
durian dessert~~hoho!! nice ^^v
but,i heard my dad they discuss about we're going to shift to somewhere else...
maybe shah alam....*0* die hard........

last night:
chit chat on msn~with him.....and bad gurl~
don't know why,i think of purple valentine out of sudden...
and i count the date,
omg! its on thursday...
the date we girls hanging out....
but,so bad,i never had had a purple valentine~
i wrote on faceook,i'm useless....
my name amethyst but never had a nice purple dayT.T
but THEN!!!
i received msg this morning from him,
omg.....he misunderstand me...
he thought i purposely wrote that to let everyone know he is useless!!
omg man!!! my brain gotta burst!!
totally WRONG!! i just wanna give some hint ok,but then....
a HINT become a HURT??!!!!

**this world is so MIRACLE & AMAZING man....
chill~~~
life still wonderfull...aiks
peace *.*v

i'm back to blogger again

i viewed back my post,wow....its november 2009...last year~
oh my gosh~
many things happened within 9months...

things change,no more ahnging out with colledge friends such frequently like those time~ cause something happened between me and one of my colledge friend~
i guess he's totally lost all of the trust on me....

few months ago~
bad girls gang started....
we really had fun during party~enjoy every move and music together~
unfortunately,this gang....seems doesn't stay long...
we have our own vision and lifestyle,guess that we need something/somebody to gather us again@.@

sigh~~

i'm not single anymore~ get back together with him~
mine story with him like a legend....never end....~~~~
i also don't understand~

haih~
i don't know,i feel unbalance recently~psycologicaly unbalance~
but,i knew that i'm so lucky i got a lot of things....
i knew,and i would thanks to GOD give me a lot~

lomography~
i start get addicted on lomography...
keep buying lomo camera~haih
to satisfied my desires~i work part time promoter...
i stopped my dance,piano and ballet class~~
i wish i can earn money myself to get what i want~
i need a laptop for my works and assignment....seriouly need it!!

my friend said blogger is a time killer~
but,for me....its an entertainment when you don't have money to hang out~
to go party~
to tea~
to movie~~~~bla3.....

i'll keep update my blog~~
to write what i'm feeling inside~
XD